[ what happened to me ... Yu turns his gaze to Minato again, his expression as blank and inscrutable as ever. I know you can't talk about it, some vindictive piece of him whispers, and he recognizes it for what it is: his pain, with sharp teeth.
He doesn't ignore it like he might have. He just incorporates it into the roil of other things he's feeling and sighs silently. ]
We've both had burdens we felt we had to carry alone.
[ If he's selfish ... so is Minato, in some way. How much are either of them culpable for these tendencies, driven into them by long lives of loneliness?
It's hard to not want to give everything to your friends if not doing that means being alone again.
It's longer before he answers that. It burns him, in a soul-deep way, the truth of it. What he'd give to keep them. How much earning them changed everything about his life. His gaze moves away, but only because he is deeply lost in thought for the moment.
Maybe that's part of why Minato turning away from him had hurt so much. He'd lost something he felt like he'd barely had time to discover, and in such a short time, Minato had become so important to him...
Yu swallows around the weight in his chest. ]
... but we're not alone. [ Yu looks at Minato, and doesn't look away again. ] It's up to us to remember that.
Yeah. [It's almost inaudible even with relative silence around them and there's something wistful in the way Minato looks up at the sky, staring at a sky that holds nothing for him to see but the reminder of his final days.]
I spoke to Shiho-san recently and she said the same thing too, but it's not as if I feel alone. ...There just doesn't seem to be a point talking about something that's going to happen no matter what I do, and to make people sad about it. [He still doesn't get it seemingly; why bother telling people he's dead when they're all dead in a sense? It's nothing they can make better and nothing they'd understand, and Minato's never been the kind of person to tell that to anyone.]
I just want them to be happy. [And implicit in those words is that he doesn't wish to be a burden to anyone.]
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He doesn't ignore it like he might have. He just incorporates it into the roil of other things he's feeling and sighs silently. ]
We've both had burdens we felt we had to carry alone.
[ If he's selfish ... so is Minato, in some way. How much are either of them culpable for these tendencies, driven into them by long lives of loneliness?
It's hard to not want to give everything to your friends if not doing that means being alone again.
It's longer before he answers that. It burns him, in a soul-deep way, the truth of it. What he'd give to keep them. How much earning them changed everything about his life. His gaze moves away, but only because he is deeply lost in thought for the moment.
Maybe that's part of why Minato turning away from him had hurt so much. He'd lost something he felt like he'd barely had time to discover, and in such a short time, Minato had become so important to him...
Yu swallows around the weight in his chest. ]
... but we're not alone. [ Yu looks at Minato, and doesn't look away again. ] It's up to us to remember that.
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I spoke to Shiho-san recently and she said the same thing too, but it's not as if I feel alone. ...There just doesn't seem to be a point talking about something that's going to happen no matter what I do, and to make people sad about it. [He still doesn't get it seemingly; why bother telling people he's dead when they're all dead in a sense? It's nothing they can make better and nothing they'd understand, and Minato's never been the kind of person to tell that to anyone.]
I just want them to be happy. [And implicit in those words is that he doesn't wish to be a burden to anyone.]